February 2012
7 posts
Well, I figured out most likely why I’m not pregnant yet. Ugh.
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I cannot handle my emotions anymore. I think I need to get to a doctor.
I spent half my birthday yesterday crying for no reason, including while I was on a job interview. Mid interview, I was talking normal and I just had this urge to cry and I did and I was so embarrassed. The guy said it was fine, and Stian explained to him that it has been happening a lot lately, but I know I was cherry red in...
I cannot handle these mood swings anymore. People are pissing me off every 5th minute. I know I’m easy to set off, but this is just ridiculous now. I cannot enjoy anything and I’m so tired of it.
I cannot handle this. I really fucking cannot.
I have been craving chicken for a week. All I want to eat is chicken. I usually hate chicken. What’s wrong with me?
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Do people ever grow up? Like, we’ve been out of high school for years now, and I feel no one has gotten out of that I’m-better-than-you-no-matter-what-you-say, clique-y attitude.
I guess I can answer my own question and say that the people I grew up with will NEVER grow up because if they’re in their 20s and still acting like this, there is no way they’ll change anytime soon. I guess this means...
So yeah, Whitney Houston died. Okay, it sucks, but this is not what I feel like bitching about.
I don’t understand the idiocy of people. It’s been confirmed everywhere that she died. Yet this fucking idiot of a girl I know keeps saying “Well, Whitney didn’t confirm her death on her facebook page yet, so I’m not going to believe it.”
YOU FUCKING IDIOT. HOW IS...
January 2012
4 posts
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Today is just one of those real emotional days that I just can’t handle. Although, I must say, I haven’t had mood swings like these since I was on the pills well over a year ago, and since I’m not on anything now, I really don’t know what the hell is going on with me. sjkfsughsdkfjhgskdfjghkldnhkdgh what is wrong with me hsbfsbgkjasdfbgdjgfndjkfh.
I honestly feel like I’m trapped in a glass case of emotion.
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I finally managed to buy some of that crackle nail polish, and I have been painting it on my nails any chance I get.
I’m totally obsessed with it and I want to try out more nail paint mixtures, so I asked my boyfriend if I could paint his toes black with the royal blue crackle. He said no, but his toes are never visible because he always has either socks or shoes on. I just want to...
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Not going to lie, but I would kill for a blunt right now.
It’s been ages since I’ve smoked, but I have been so beyond stressed out lately, and it would just mellow me out completely.
December 2011
3 posts
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I tried dying my hair a week ago, and it failed. I guess because it was so thick and goopy, it didn’t have enough time to set, and it just fell out of my hair pretty much. So now Stian is going to help me dye it again tonight and I’m going to sit an hour, maybe an hour and a half, just so my hair is Jessica Rabbit Red instead of this bullshit stripped red color it is now. Wish me...
I know I usually rant on here, but I am taking a short break from the bitching to write to wish my followers a very happy holiday :)
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Something that REALLY grinds my gears:
If you have been dating someone on and off for multiple years, including dating people in between, that you are in NO WAY, SHAPE OR FORM dating for those already mentioned multiple years. You are just continuing a bullshit lie of a relationship that is only going to end in a bad way.
When you find someone you love and care about, you don’t date other...
November 2011
16 posts
The past couple of days, I feel like EVERYONE is getting on my nerves with EVERYTHING, except Stian.
I’ve been contemplating deleting SO MANY PEOPLE from my life, it’s ridiculous.
I just want everyone to go away for awhile.
fghsdfkjdhnsklfhgk what are you doing?! why would you do that?! you’re never going to get a job and you are NOT going to waste through all your money and then try and live with us. FUCK THAT.
I have the worst headache.
This is the 3rd day in a row where I’ve gotten a really sudden headache that is resistant to medicine. I can’t even eat anything. Everytime I chew, the pain gets worse :(
Some of my distant family really drives me nuts.
For instance, I have one snobby, rich second cousin. She constantly says AWFUL things to me, to piss me off on purpose. It’s not worth getting angry at her, but the comments she makes are so horrible.
One time, she said she knew my grandmother was an awful woman after meeting her for just an hour. Who the fuck are you to say ANYTHING about...
Stian came inside just now from having a cigarette and then WHOOSH! The scent of weed filled the living room. Apparently one of my elderly neighbors is smoking pot on their balcony. Fucking hysterical lolololololol
My boyfriend has been telling me that I’ve been throwing off a really thick British accent quite often lately (the way he describes it, it’s a bit Geordie). Problem is, I don’t even know that I’m doing it.
My family used to mention it to me occasionally when I was back in NY, but I never really thought twice about it. Maybe it’s a second personality? Hmm.
I REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND TEENAGERS THESE DAYS.
I know some current teenagers from the day they were born, and to watch them start drinking and smoking and doing drugs at a disgustingly young age troubles me.
For instance: One of the teenagers I’ve watched grow up is a mess. She’s 15 now, planning her Sweet 16 and writes it’s going to be all about, and I quote,...
I feel like I’ve been bitching and moaning about a lot of things lately. I don’t care though. It keeps me from taking it out on my boyfriend.
But a rant about someone who was close to me, until I decided it was best to stay away from her for a bit (and for good reason):
She’s one of those new mothers I was talking about the other day. I still don’t get how you can leave a...
I honestly need to learn to eat on a better schedule.
I was shaking so much just now that I couldn’t stand up to wash the dishes.
I have shaken from not eating before, but never like this. I really was expecting myself to fall into a seizure.
Not a fan :(
You know you’re in a serious, loving relationship when you can’t even date someone other than your significant other in your dreams.
Though I enjoy that feeling, one eensy weensy dream date with Danny Saucedo wouldn’t kill anyone!
One thing that REALLY pisses me off is new mothers acting like they don’t have responsibilities.
Every girl I know that has just had a baby in the past year has run off to get drunk and go out and party a week or 2 after their kid is born. HOW SELFISH CAN YOU BE?
I don’t have a kid, and people might be all “oh, who are you to talk?” but FUCK YOU. I raised my niece for the...
Today is my future mother in law’s birthday. I still can’t stand her, but I sent her an SMS saying happy birthday. I wrote that I had no voice. I half lied. I have a nasty pain in my throat (probably an infection from a lymph node) and I would just prefer to not talk, especially to her right now.
Ever since I saw Melodifestivalen/Eurovision last year, I have become OBSESSED.
I am counting down the days anxiously for Melodifestivalen (3 months & 2 days!!!!) and Eurovision (6 months & 20 days!!!!) but I am seriously going crazy waiting.
Stian and I wanted to buy tickets to one of the finals of Melodifestivalen, considering the big arena in town was hosting it, but the tickets were...
Why do people feel the need to celebrate “month-iversaries?” I feel it’s so childish.
Like, acknowledging it is fine. Example: “Oh honey, it’s a year and 5 months since we started dating.” “Wow, that long already?”….etc.
But buying gifts and celebrating one day a month, every month….it’s a little much. Besides, money can’t...
I am so tired of this back pain. It goes away, making me think it’s gone, and then BAM! Surprise, it’s back. I really don’t know how much more of this I can handle. I really don’t.
ughhh, pain in my throat, go awayyyyy.
October 2011
4 posts
Everytime the main door to my apartment opens downstairs, I have a small panic attack.
I do not want trick or treaters. I do not have candy. Stian pointed out we have Gingerbread Dumle. I pointed out those Dumle are MINE.
Can’t I just lay on the couch, eat gingerbread cookies and enjoy “Allå Allå” in peace?!
I’m also REALLY sick of my future mother in law. All she does is get on my fucking nerves lately. The more I see her or hear from her, the more pissed I get.
First off, this woman thinks she needs to know EVERYTHING in EVERYONE’S lives. She violated my boyfriend’s trust by making his doctor tell her everything in his file, which there should be a lawsuit. She followed by then...
I am definitely the only person in the world who HATES Halloween. Most people I know are still dressing up for this stupid “holiday” in their 20s.
I stopped trick or treating when I was 13. I have no effort to go to someones door, and beg them to give me something. I hated walking up and down Center Street. Longest fucking walk of my life.
Costumes are way too expensive anyway....
Open Letter To My Ex-Boyfriends.
First of all, let me get things straight. I hate you all. It would honestly thrill me to see every single one of your guts spill. I could care less otherwise as to what you have done since we broke up, what you’re doing now, or what you’ll do in the future.
But I have to also thank every single one of you. It disgusts me, but I have to do it.
So thank you for cheating on me...